i'm just tired of every time i fix something wrong with me something else goes.
and with this whole neck thing, it's just like my back all over again. no one is taking me too seriously because i don't scream and cry and overreact, i just calmly tell them what's bothering me and i get shafted. they throw pain killers at me and tell me to find a neurosurgeon... um, THAT'S WHY I'M TALKING TO YOU! i'm not exactly hip to the neurosurgeons around here, i was hoping for a referral, not a nerve conduction test/eeg order. WE KNOW THERE'S A PROBLEM, WE KNOW WHAT IT IS, WHY WON'T ANYONE HELP ME FIX IT?!?
it all just makes me want to take my pain killers like a good girl and forget everything, forget being proactive, take in disability and rot. "you know you can get on disability right?" I CAN STILL WALK, I'LL BE DAMNED IF I'M TAKING MONEY FROM SOMEONE WHO MIGHT ACTUALLY NEED IT!!! hell, i don't even use my handicap placard, why would i get on disability?!
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i'm just tired of every time i fix something wrong with me something else goes.
and with this whole neck thing, it's just like my back all over again. no one is taking me too seriously because i don't scream and cry and overreact, i just calmly tell them what's bothering me and i get shafted. they throw pain killers at me and tell me to find a neurosurgeon... um, THAT'S WHY I'M TALKING TO YOU! i'm not exactly hip to the neurosurgeons around here, i was hoping for a referral, not a nerve conduction test/eeg order. WE KNOW THERE'S A PROBLEM, WE KNOW WHAT IT IS, WHY WON'T ANYONE HELP ME FIX IT?!?
it all just makes me want to take my pain killers like a good girl and forget everything, forget being proactive, take in disability and rot. "you know you can get on disability right?" I CAN STILL WALK, I'LL BE DAMNED IF I'M TAKING MONEY FROM SOMEONE WHO MIGHT ACTUALLY NEED IT!!! hell, i don't even use my handicap placard, why would i get on disability?!
it's just so... maddening.