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[sprinklethief]

i have a sense that everything is suddenly all fucked up again. strange because all i do is go to work, sleep (when it comes, which isn't often) and watch Tv. i don't ever rock the boat because i can't handle the aftermath. i can't be entertaining anymore, i'm always afraid i'm going to upset someone when i talk, but it seems i do even when i say nothing at all. i can't handle roller coasters anymore, hence why i'm medicated, but no one else seems to agree with the anti-drama. there's always gotta be something floating in the toilet. bah, i'm just frustrated and beginning to become a little too used to the chaos, which is something i never wanted. i strive to have an anti-chaotic life. i've tried to drop the nickname "queen of chaos" my mother gave me becuase i'm sick of having a traumatic life, but aparently i fucked up somewhere without even knowing it.

i just don't want to be upset anymore. my brain and my heart cannot handle it anymore.

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[staindglasstear.livejournal.com]

*hugs you so tight you can't breathe*

This too shall pass sweetie. Remember to just take some time for yourself, even if it's just to soak in a tub for a few minutes.

Chaos is everywhere whether we like it or not. How you deal with it is what makes all the difference.

Don't let yourself be drawn into other's chaos.

You are not the "queen of chaos" you are the "queen of all that's beautiful and good".

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

awww, thanks :)

i just want a fairy book life i think. i know those don't really exist but it would be awesome.