here's a fatty picture from march of '05. i stayed away from cameras and didn't go out in public. mind you - i went from 120 to 140 in a few months, then on thorazine and then lithium and then depakote and then geodon and so on and so on... 140 to 190 which is what i am in this picture:




here's me in october '05 at 192:





and here's me a few minutes ago at 123:




btw, those pants are from high school :)


it's a shitty picture but i don't have any other ones of me now-a-days so i did the cam whore thing.


my mom has one from christmas when i first lost everything and got really sick. i'm gonna get it from her but it's kind of disturbing because i was so freakin' sick. purple rings around my eyes, sunken cheeks, bald spots... it was pretty bad.

since then i've recovered my ability to eat and my hair is slowly growing back (itchy itchy!). i hit 112 but then when i was able to eat again i became an eat beast.


From: [identity profile] the-1.livejournal.com


Holy shit! Yeah, I haven't been in the same room as you for what.. a year or so? Looking great!

From: [identity profile] paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com


i think it might of been one of the phantasy shows i was either in or djing or my band at the time was playing. i drank so much in those days it's hard to say, lol.

From: [identity profile] the-1.livejournal.com


I think you were djing one of the Phantasy shows I was seeling leather stuff. HTMF1.5
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