okay already

[sprinklethief]

here's a fatty picture from march of '05. i stayed away from cameras and didn't go out in public. mind you - i went from 120 to 140 in a few months, then on thorazine and then lithium and then depakote and then geodon and so on and so on... 140 to 190 which is what i am in this picture:




here's me in october '05 at 192:





and here's me a few minutes ago at 123:




btw, those pants are from high school :)


it's a shitty picture but i don't have any other ones of me now-a-days so i did the cam whore thing.


my mom has one from christmas when i first lost everything and got really sick. i'm gonna get it from her but it's kind of disturbing because i was so freakin' sick. purple rings around my eyes, sunken cheeks, bald spots... it was pretty bad.

since then i've recovered my ability to eat and my hair is slowly growing back (itchy itchy!). i hit 112 but then when i was able to eat again i became an eat beast.

Comments

[daliah.livejournal.com]

wow, congrats...you look amazing!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

thank you :)

[stylish-deviant.livejournal.com]

dude, you look awesome!
can't wait to see you in person!
1 week away!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

are you guys coming down here or are we going up there?

[stylish-deviant.livejournal.com]

unfortunaterly i doubt we'll be able to make it to kent...but we would love it if you could come visit us!

[ciani.livejournal.com]

wow is right. you look awesome! Did you do anything special?

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

got deathly ill, lol.

i try to watch my portions a lot and tell myself "it's okay if you can't clear your plate, that's why god made a refrigerator and a microwave."

that's what's helping me keep it off at least.

[woodfaery.livejournal.com]

Oh my goodness, what a tranformation. You look hot! And those pants are neat also.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

why thank you and thank you!

[genuinechris.livejournal.com]

crazy chicks ARE hot.

[waffles2poles.livejournal.com]

WOW! I mean you were atrractive with the weight.

Good job!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

thank you. i hated being a "big girl" though because my health went to shit. my knees were getting all achey, my blood pressure skyrocketed, i couldn't breathe very well. it sucked, flat out.

[noroad.livejournal.com]

OH WOW - how INSPIRING!! You look so great. I know what those meds do to a body! *bows down* YOU RULE. Simply stunning.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i'll never forgive that whore psych doctor that did that to me. she came highly reccomended too, which baffled me. i do my own judgement of what's a good doctor now.

[dyadfaerie.livejournal.com]

Wow.

But I told you that when I saw you a few weeks ago!

Hopefully I'll be posting some pictures like that in the near future.

^_^

Glad you're doing better <3

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

it's all about will power, at least that's what's keeping it off. as soon as i moved away from lakewood/cleveland it seemed to fall off (tho i kept getting sicker and sicker). seriously, i'm keeping it off by watching portions and the quality of feed i eat.

I know it's sappy/cliche' but

[nemesisn72.livejournal.com]

I think you're beautiful no matter what you look like.

Re: I know it's sappy/cliche' but

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

awwwwww ::blush::

Re: I know it's sappy/cliche' but

[nemesisn72.livejournal.com]

:D

PS there's a package headed your way

[joybeans.livejournal.com]

Damn, girl! You're lookin' fan-fucking-tastic!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

why thank you hottie mc hotterson!

[joybeans.livejournal.com]

lol

I've always been completely smitten by you. It's almost embarrassing to admit now, but when I first added you oh so long ago, it was because of your hottness. heh

[tattoogoddess.livejournal.com]

you look amazing!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

thank you, i'm finally starting to feel the part too :)

[cobalt-sky.livejournal.com]

HOT DAMN! LET'S BOOF!


Just kiding, you look good!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

what about you mr skinnypants?!

[cobalt-sky.livejournal.com]

What about me, I was in kent today! We eat at Rays affter MTBing at west branch... I would have called you but I ant gots no #

[anmorata.livejournal.com]

I have to echo Lori's sentiment: you look wonderful no matter what.

Congratulations on your progress, though! :)

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

awww, thanks :)

[the-1.livejournal.com]

Holy shit! Yeah, I haven't been in the same room as you for what.. a year or so? Looking great!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i think it might of been one of the phantasy shows i was either in or djing or my band at the time was playing. i drank so much in those days it's hard to say, lol.

[the-1.livejournal.com]

I think you were djing one of the Phantasy shows I was seeling leather stuff. HTMF1.5

[indy-skies.livejournal.com]

you look great! i remember when you started up that weight loss bipolar community and you were having trouble... i'm so happy for you. makes me think i can shed some of my pounds too!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

will power, young jedi!

[indy-skies.livejournal.com]

i'm hoping now that i've graduated school i won't eat so much like a college student and be able to spend more time working out etc.

[matafleur.livejournal.com]

had the hots for you in HS
had the hots for you @ 192
still got 'em

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

boioioioioioing!

my baybuh!

[skwyrm.livejournal.com]

I'm so proud of you sweety... but you allready know that...