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don't judge what i do if you don't know everything that's involved, especially if you aren't involved.
this is why i don't really share a lot of the events of my life with people, it's really no one's business what i'm up to and why. yeah i write about shit in here, most of which are things i don't mind sharing and is a very very tiny portion of my life, everything else has been edited out, and it sucks that i have to do that because of some people.
yeah, if you were me you'd have done this and that differently, you'd have done this or not done this. it's so easy to sit there and say that when you're on the outside looking in. when you're not coping with the things i am. when you're not re-writing your life and trying live down the shitty things you've done to people. when you're not struggling every day with your health and wondering if this is literally killing you since no one seems to know what it is.
yeah, it's easy to pass judgement from the outside. fuck you.
yeah, oh poor me. i am fucking feeling sorry for myself, so what? i can't fucking say or do anything without someone jumping in my shit and telling me it's wrong. if i do the opposite, then that's wrong too. you know what? i'm fucking through trying to please you fucks that are doing this.
my whole thing i'm trying to accomplish is to live my life better than i have over the past 10 years. not intentionally hurt people and use people. trying to be a good person while doing things that make me happy and help me advance myself as a person.
so fuck those of you who think that your opinions of what i do is going to change what i do. the only thing it's doing is pissing me off. if it doesn't effect you then stop bitching me out every step of the way, i'm through taking it. being a good person doesn't mean being a fucking doormat.
this is why i don't really share a lot of the events of my life with people, it's really no one's business what i'm up to and why. yeah i write about shit in here, most of which are things i don't mind sharing and is a very very tiny portion of my life, everything else has been edited out, and it sucks that i have to do that because of some people.
yeah, if you were me you'd have done this and that differently, you'd have done this or not done this. it's so easy to sit there and say that when you're on the outside looking in. when you're not coping with the things i am. when you're not re-writing your life and trying live down the shitty things you've done to people. when you're not struggling every day with your health and wondering if this is literally killing you since no one seems to know what it is.
yeah, it's easy to pass judgement from the outside. fuck you.
yeah, oh poor me. i am fucking feeling sorry for myself, so what? i can't fucking say or do anything without someone jumping in my shit and telling me it's wrong. if i do the opposite, then that's wrong too. you know what? i'm fucking through trying to please you fucks that are doing this.
my whole thing i'm trying to accomplish is to live my life better than i have over the past 10 years. not intentionally hurt people and use people. trying to be a good person while doing things that make me happy and help me advance myself as a person.
so fuck those of you who think that your opinions of what i do is going to change what i do. the only thing it's doing is pissing me off. if it doesn't effect you then stop bitching me out every step of the way, i'm through taking it. being a good person doesn't mean being a fucking doormat.
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sorry to hear
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go fuck yourself and continue keeping tabs on me in other people's journals.
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but here's something for you to chew on...
while you're keeping tabs on kym and hoping she's doing better, I'M laying in bed cuddled up to her. and we're both laughing at your misfortune, since you've obviously got nothing better to do that keep track of OTHER people's lives instead of living your own...
on the bright side, you have inspired me to create a new character for a cartoon or puppet show... be on the look out for that. soon you too will be a shining star...
all hail the ANONYMOUS POSTER!!!!
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really that's all anyone can ask of you. so you're right to tell them to fuck off if they can't see that you're trying. i read your entries here and i can tell that everyday you try bery hard to survive and make some change. i admire you for that.
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You have to do what's right for you even if people give you crap for it. I mean, they're not living your life, you are.
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that and it's always fun to watch people make a grand ol' ass of themselves.
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Ir's hard to try to be a better person. I still haven't forgiven myself for the damage I did in the past. You are so trying. Don't give up that fight.
Rock on, sister.
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i gotta tell you, even though i've got insomnia like a montherfucker, i still sleep better at night since i've been activly doing things this way.
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i love you and i miss you and i think about you a lot...
i was sorry to hear that you and wyl broke up and i hope you guys can work out whatever you need to...
keep rolling on my sweet monkey, you're one of the best people i have had the pleasure to know...
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i'm glad to hear you've been coming to a lot of the same conclusions too. some of your entries have been helping me as well, i just never know how to reply to them.
and in chinese astrology i *am* a monkey :D
in relationships there's always some work to be done. we'll see how it goes THIS time. we've had fallings out many times in the past, none this bad though. i feel like i'm wearing armor this time.
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