sticky goo

[sprinklethief]

i still have the adhesive all over my body from various IVs, ekg thingers and something else they put on my ankles amd arms n stuff. i dunno how to get it off so i guess i'll shower and hope for the best.

i'm not really too sleepy.

i wish i had enough money to not have to go back to work till next week. i don't need the stress right now. i'm so freaking out about what kind of monstrosity those people made of all my various systems of control i had in game rush. so much damage can be done in so little time...

i need to get a note excusing me from work for the days i didn't go in. wyl called in and told them i was in the hospital, luckily not what i was in for...

i can feel the pressure welling up again... it's like a lump in my throat, compacting my spine, my shulders are tensing, so is my neck...

why is money such a goddamn issue?

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[nemesisn72.livejournal.com]

I love you baby.

Don't you forget it.

I know it can be super-hard to let go, as you and I have talked about on a number of occasions, but you have to. There's no reason to let this shit bury you anymore. You're a great person who is amazingly intellgent and beautiful.

You'll be okay. I really think you will.

PS Money is the root of all evil. Seriously.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

it's really hard to remember that everyone else's problems aren't mine. i'm so used to being superwoman...

i wish you were in cleveland.

[nemesisn72.livejournal.com]

and I wish you were here...I should be around Saturday night and Sunday until the afternoon this weekend...