sticky goo

[sprinklethief]

i still have the adhesive all over my body from various IVs, ekg thingers and something else they put on my ankles amd arms n stuff. i dunno how to get it off so i guess i'll shower and hope for the best.

i'm not really too sleepy.

i wish i had enough money to not have to go back to work till next week. i don't need the stress right now. i'm so freaking out about what kind of monstrosity those people made of all my various systems of control i had in game rush. so much damage can be done in so little time...

i need to get a note excusing me from work for the days i didn't go in. wyl called in and told them i was in the hospital, luckily not what i was in for...

i can feel the pressure welling up again... it's like a lump in my throat, compacting my spine, my shulders are tensing, so is my neck...

why is money such a goddamn issue?

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[bhawks.livejournal.com]

Let go

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

it's really hard to let go, it's not a natural feeling for me, i always try to hard to be in control of myself... letting go isn't so much of an option in that sense... perhaps letting the problems fall onto whom began them... now there's a theory...

thank you for excusing me from work, doc. when can you come visit?