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[sprinklethief]

i'm able to sit up on my own for short periods of time... it fucking hurts like a motherfucker but i can kinda do it.

i was able to (painfully) get to the bathroom on my own earlier, i need a shower... bad... but i can't stand up long enough to accomplish that...

i'm getting all kindsa nautious from the SSRI DS but i finally choked down some pepto and now not so pukey. BUT THE FUCKING BRAIN SHOCKS ARE KILLING ME! they're so bad they're litterally knocking me over.

this is shit. i can't wait till (if this ever) ends. two weeks already. it needs to be over. it needs to be over now.

that on top of the back surgery... i find myself wishing for death every fucking second of every fucking minute of every fucking hour of every fucking day. it is litterally driving me insane. literally. i'm beggining to hallucinate again. the pain is driving me crazy.

i want a shotgun. i think i could stretch my leg out far enough to pull the fucking trigger and blow my fucking terrible and unbearable head clean off my shoulders. i seriously don't know how much more of this i can take.

its sad when you have a million inch needle jammed into your spine and withdrawl is hurting worse.

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fucking someone kill me right fucking now.

Comments

[skwyrm.livejournal.com]

you're getting better, and as soon as the detoxing is overwith, I think you'll be amazed at how much better EVERYTHING feels... I've seen you in motion since the back piercing, and you are WAY more fluid until you hit a wrong pose and get the pain shock...

You'll see. you AREN'T wasting your time, this pain and suffering is gonna pay off... you'll see...

besides, I'm right here if ya need me...