whining

[sprinklethief]

its january, which means i've been sick most of the days of the month. luckily my birthday i only had a sore throat and joint pain, but now i'm back to feeling like i just got ran over by a mack truck. i have no energy and even breathing feels like too much of a chore (not to mention my chest hurts). i slept 18 hours monday and still felt like i hadn't slept in days. then i couldn't sleep and still felt like i hadn't slept in days. i'm weak, i'm tired, i'm full of piss and vinegar (and mucus). its like ever since i got hit with all that sinus and respiratory crap i've not been even close to feeling healthy.

lame.

i also got diagnosed with PMDD yesterday, and the doc gave me prozac to take a week out of the month. i fail to see how a week's worth of an SSRI is capable of accomplishing anything, but anything to keep me from punching shower curtains and yelling at makeup is worth a shot.

i just need a break health-wise. this is my last freaking undergrad semester and i've already missed classes. i just want to kick ass, take names and get on with this already. eff this being sick crap.

Comments

[daliah.livejournal.com]

fuck me, i lost my reply!

retry to reply:

i have taken prozac for pmdd, cyclically, 10 mg, 10 days a month. im pretty sure it worked.

i actually mentioned that when i went to see my dr this afternoon. he didnt seem receptive to the idea. im fairly certain the birth control is whats making me the most crazy lately. i so want to go back off of it...the year i was off i was sooooooooooooo stable. granted i was still on meds, but i was totally good. i doubt any dr will sterilize me at this point, and asking the new fella in my life to get a vasectomy at this point might be a little premature. (its only been three months!) though he says absolutely no more kids, and actually did mention the other night that that would proabbly the next step. not for us, i think he just meant for him in general.

i digress..

i got him to give me buspar. he really really didnt want to. i asked him why and he said he just finds it doesnt usually work. from what i was reading, it seems to help a lot of people. 15 mg bid, then tid. i think im going to take half a tab bid first, then go up to 15 bid and see what happens. from what i was reading thats a pretty high initial dose. what dose are you taking?

so of course, my concerns with any med have always been weight gain, tiredness, and sexual side effects.

he suggested remeron...cause i havent been sleeping well. hes like, it will help you sleep, and there are no sexual side effects, but it can causae weight gain. i was like, yeah, it does. i hear it does an awful lot. like, really bad. so, i refused that as well...

as he was writing my script he muttered 'what do you they say? nurses make the worst pts?" if thats not true, i dont know what is. he didnt say it in an inappropriate manner. joking. then as i was checking out, he said to the receptionist *no more booking of nurses* i laughed, and said, *hes probably not joking*.

wow, im long winded...

hope the prozac works for you. i think thats the only way i might want to take that again.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

she started me out on 20mg prozac for days 15 - 28 of my cycle but gave me free range to adjust as needed. she said she normally starts out at 10 but wanted to hit it hard since i was such a mess. so far i've just had insomnia and felt retarded, lol. i suppose that's better than randomly spitting venom on my husband and beating the shit out of the shower curtain. i seriously punched the hell out of my shower curtain for being outside the tub. afterward i was screaming at my mascara for being clumpy and threw it across the house... not my style, so i decided it was time to go to the doctor, lol.

the doc said that after about 26 years old PMDD becomes more common and severe. i've been on the same birth control for 10 years, so i dunno if that would be the problem or not?

i'm on 30mg buspar at bedtime. i started out on 10 in the am and 10 in the pm but we found the adderall just wiped it out, so it was best to take it when i was winding down off of that.

i hate when docs get mad that you don't want to take meds that you KNOW will fuck with you. i had a pdoc (who obviously didn't check my chart first) try to force me to take effexor until i finally got him to look at my chart and see that effexor caused a psychotic break that landed me in the funny farm. i mean, if a patient seems to have done their homework, what's the harm in letting them try it so long as it doesn't fuck with their other meds.

[shadowsound.livejournal.com]

I really really for really hope that the prozac helps with your PMDD. It is hell, and I can sympathize with your inanimate object abuse. :/

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i always feel so silly afterward once the rage settles, like "why the hell did i just do that?!?" every time i throw something i have to go get it, so i'm essentially just playing angry fetch, lol.

[daliah.livejournal.com]

rofl angry fetch.

[shadowsound.livejournal.com]

lolol, and it just makes it worse because you know "how you're being" and .. yeah.
At least it wasn't something breakable.
Fuck you, shower curtain.. that's what you get!

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

my internet was going too slow back in kenmore so i slammed my wireless mouse against the desk a few times (because obviously that's how you fix slow internet) and popped the wheel out, lol. i felt like such an ass and was really glad justin didn't see...