i'm seriously starting to think i have PMDD. PMDD and PCOS? would god be that cruel? to me? probably... that's exactly what i need. anyone have any experience with this?
i was thinking about hittin' up some B12, maybe some D (since i obviously don't get much from the sun...). what kinds of symptoms do you get? what kind of time frame?
i keep reading that they like to give SSRI's for treatment, but i can already cross that one off the list. a lot of us bipolar I freaks can't hang with SSRI's or else we end up with a blurry memory and a lot of explaining to do (i.e. massive mania or worse - mixed episodes where everyone near you fears for their lives, lol).
Hmmm. It seemed like 'normal' PMS would start 2 weeks prior to my period, but the week before was like PMS on crack- all the usual PMS fun amped to hell. I think one of the worst bits was that I was just awful to Beck, I'd become extremely critical of every little thing he did, pretty much bordering on verbally abusive. It was like I had no "wall" for my emotions - I'd be saying something mean, before I could stop myself. When talking about it with my doctor, I described it as Dr. Jekyll/Mr.Hyde sort of thing. But apart from that, thoughts of self harm, worse than usual depression (and you know how my depression is), felt extraordinarily lethargic, very strong cravings, bloating so much that it gave me new stretch marks and I looked preggers, irregular spotting, and roller coaster mood swings.
With the birth control and celexa, the symptoms seemed to have been tamed a bit, but get worse if I don't keep up with the vitamins or if I eat crappy food.
if you change the "beck" to "justin" and took out the spotting (prolly cuz i've been on birth control for 11 freaking years so i'm like clockwork) i could take that description to my doc and pass it as my own... i did actually get a couple new stretch marks this time around, and a few old ones HURT.
now that ye olde hormones are back to earth i look at poor justin and want to just pet him and say i'm sorry 98743678235643589 times. he's so used to my insanity that he just takes it, and that's not right. it's like the last 5 or 6 months it's been getting steadily worse. this last time around i had some sort of weird flu thing and the blood pressure thing i was having when you guys were over that makes me turn blue, so i was very unpleasant. he just stayed downstairs and hid, poor guy.
so which kind of doc would you suggest? a shrink, obgyn or gen prac? why would it just kinda show up like this? i thought my bipolar was out of control, but now that aunt flo is... ahem... here... i feel totally balanced and normal. even shittier, i can see clearly what a fuckwad i've been and i want to stop that before it happens again.
yeah, my spotting could have been due to my body deciding it didn't want to create estrogen anymore. :P
It really does sound to me like you've got it, and I'd definitely see a doctor. Tell them you've got a friend who has it and is convinced that you do to.
I'm thinking that a GP should be fine if you're comfortable talking about it them. My doctor also performed the "women's wellness exam" on me, so she was apparently in the know about this sort of thing. I'm thinking that if you make sure to write everything down that you're going through around your time (pretty much everything you've said here!) and show them the list that they'd be able to see that something is up in hormone land and hopefully have some useful info. I'll definitely be doing some more research too and will report back anything I can find out.
Let Justin know what you think is going on and assure him that you want to get it checked out. You can tell him that Beck and I went through a very similar time not so long ago. He pretty much tried to brush off most of my nastiness, and I tried to avoid human contact as much as possible until things started to even out and get back to 'normal'.
you've been immensely helpful issmonster. i need to get this under control before people die, lol. it helps to have someone close to me that's gone through it to give me pointers, so many of my medical anomalies i've been the only person i know to have it or they're rare so even the doctor doesn't know what to tell me to expect, it's nice to have support :).
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I think one of the worst bits was that I was just awful to Beck, I'd become extremely critical of every little thing he did, pretty much bordering on verbally abusive. It was like I had no "wall" for my emotions - I'd be saying something mean, before I could stop myself. When talking about it with my doctor, I described it as Dr. Jekyll/Mr.Hyde sort of thing.
But apart from that, thoughts of self harm, worse than usual depression (and you know how my depression is), felt extraordinarily lethargic, very strong cravings, bloating so much that it gave me new stretch marks and I looked preggers, irregular spotting, and roller coaster mood swings.
With the birth control and celexa, the symptoms seemed to have been tamed a bit, but get worse if I don't keep up with the vitamins or if I eat crappy food.
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now that ye olde hormones are back to earth i look at poor justin and want to just pet him and say i'm sorry 98743678235643589 times. he's so used to my insanity that he just takes it, and that's not right. it's like the last 5 or 6 months it's been getting steadily worse. this last time around i had some sort of weird flu thing and the blood pressure thing i was having when you guys were over that makes me turn blue, so i was very unpleasant. he just stayed downstairs and hid, poor guy.
so which kind of doc would you suggest? a shrink, obgyn or gen prac? why would it just kinda show up like this? i thought my bipolar was out of control, but now that aunt flo is... ahem... here... i feel totally balanced and normal. even shittier, i can see clearly what a fuckwad i've been and i want to stop that before it happens again.
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It really does sound to me like you've got it, and I'd definitely see a doctor. Tell them you've got a friend who has it and is convinced that you do to.
I'm thinking that a GP should be fine if you're comfortable talking about it them.
My doctor also performed the "women's wellness exam" on me, so she was apparently in the know about this sort of thing. I'm thinking that if you make sure to write everything down that you're going through around your time (pretty much everything you've said here!) and show them the list that they'd be able to see that something is up in hormone land and hopefully have some useful info.
I'll definitely be doing some more research too and will report back anything I can find out.
Let Justin know what you think is going on and assure him that you want to get it checked out. You can tell him that Beck and I went through a very similar time not so long ago. He pretty much tried to brush off most of my nastiness, and I tried to avoid human contact as much as possible until things started to even out and get back to 'normal'.
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