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yanno, i'm REAL sick of being blown off by doctors. i'm also REAL sick of being treated like a goddam junkie because i'm asking for pain meds post op. i'm also sick of asshole surgeons telling me i'm not in pain and shouldn't need pain killers.
excuse me, what!?!
let me get this strait. within the last 24 hours you have cut through half of my skin around my neck, clipped my muscles and windpipe out of the way, scraped out a damaged disc, fished out disc fragments from my spinal cord, decompressed said spinal cord, grafted in bone, attached a giant plate by screwing it into my vertebrae, put everything back, sewed it shut and stuck me into a hard cervical collar for a month. all of this and i'm not supposed to be in pain?!?!? funny, YOUR POST OP NURSE is the one who had me on morphine and demerol. motrin? seriously??
he grudgingly gave me some little baby percocets and totally refused to write me a prescription for phenergren (which is an antihistamine i take with narcotic pain killers because i'll throw up if i don't). he refused to write it. i've been on it the whole time i was in the hospital. any time anyone has prescribed pain pills i've gotten it. he had no answer other than he didn't want to.
what's even more of a kick in the head? the lady in the room across from mine had the same surgery and he spent over a half hour with her, talking about her concerns, checking range of motion, etc. he didn't even touch me. i don't know what the hell they did to me while i was out, but i found a bunch of dried blood on top of my hair and on my chest. i must have been a squirter, lol.
seriously though, i'm finished. if anything else happens i'm just going to live with it. there's no reason for me to be treated the way i am by doctors and surgeons because i'm "too young" to have "all these health problems." these assholes need to realize that just because i LOOK 20 years old doesn't mean i am. i'm pushing the big 3-oh soon, i think i've earned the right to be treated like a big kid.
fuck. i'm just so in hate with the world. i seriously feel nothing but contempt for most things now. i don't think i'm ever going to get back my "sparkle" because the hate ate it all. every shitty thing that happens is just another notch in the belt.
fuck this, i'm going to bed.
excuse me, what!?!
let me get this strait. within the last 24 hours you have cut through half of my skin around my neck, clipped my muscles and windpipe out of the way, scraped out a damaged disc, fished out disc fragments from my spinal cord, decompressed said spinal cord, grafted in bone, attached a giant plate by screwing it into my vertebrae, put everything back, sewed it shut and stuck me into a hard cervical collar for a month. all of this and i'm not supposed to be in pain?!?!? funny, YOUR POST OP NURSE is the one who had me on morphine and demerol. motrin? seriously??
he grudgingly gave me some little baby percocets and totally refused to write me a prescription for phenergren (which is an antihistamine i take with narcotic pain killers because i'll throw up if i don't). he refused to write it. i've been on it the whole time i was in the hospital. any time anyone has prescribed pain pills i've gotten it. he had no answer other than he didn't want to.
what's even more of a kick in the head? the lady in the room across from mine had the same surgery and he spent over a half hour with her, talking about her concerns, checking range of motion, etc. he didn't even touch me. i don't know what the hell they did to me while i was out, but i found a bunch of dried blood on top of my hair and on my chest. i must have been a squirter, lol.
seriously though, i'm finished. if anything else happens i'm just going to live with it. there's no reason for me to be treated the way i am by doctors and surgeons because i'm "too young" to have "all these health problems." these assholes need to realize that just because i LOOK 20 years old doesn't mean i am. i'm pushing the big 3-oh soon, i think i've earned the right to be treated like a big kid.
fuck. i'm just so in hate with the world. i seriously feel nothing but contempt for most things now. i don't think i'm ever going to get back my "sparkle" because the hate ate it all. every shitty thing that happens is just another notch in the belt.
fuck this, i'm going to bed.
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