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i wish i could get in to see a neurosurgeon sooner. this is getting to be unbearable. i have a neurologist appointment wednesday, so i can get a referral for god knows when to see a neurosurgeon, who will then tell me what i already know has to happen (fusion, discectomy or replacement, depending on how bad this has gotten), then tell me that he can't cut me up for another 3 months.
god, i can't even imagine 3 months of this. but waaay back when my lower back started acting up, i didn't think i could survive that either, and i went 4 years of that pain, increasing diligently. i remember the wild and sometimes violent mood swings the pain would cause, the depression, the weight gain, the misery. i don't want to have to live through this again. i'm demanding surgery as a first line treatment, because i know that all the other crap i went through before my fusion was totally useless and has thrown me right back into medical debt because my copays are ridiculous.
luckily, the neurologist already knows me and has an order to check me out for some seemingly unrelated shit thats been scaring the hell out of me. this new neck business is just icing on the goddamn cake. fuck stenosis, fuck it in its narrow little ass. and fuck whatever is causing all the other crazy neuro crap i've been dealing with. most of all, fuck my stupid body for giving out on me at the age of 27. this blows.
god, i can't even imagine 3 months of this. but waaay back when my lower back started acting up, i didn't think i could survive that either, and i went 4 years of that pain, increasing diligently. i remember the wild and sometimes violent mood swings the pain would cause, the depression, the weight gain, the misery. i don't want to have to live through this again. i'm demanding surgery as a first line treatment, because i know that all the other crap i went through before my fusion was totally useless and has thrown me right back into medical debt because my copays are ridiculous.
luckily, the neurologist already knows me and has an order to check me out for some seemingly unrelated shit thats been scaring the hell out of me. this new neck business is just icing on the goddamn cake. fuck stenosis, fuck it in its narrow little ass. and fuck whatever is causing all the other crazy neuro crap i've been dealing with. most of all, fuck my stupid body for giving out on me at the age of 27. this blows.
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