i can't cope today.

[sprinklethief]

i feel like everything is under my skin today.

i hate people trying to guilt me and make me feel like crap for something i never agreed to in the first place.

i yelled at my therapist today.

my anger is starting to get out of control again. everything annoys me, even things that i normally would adore. i'm keeping my mouth shut and just dealing with it.

i hate being jumped upon verbally the second i walk through the door after a particularly bad session. you shouldn't pressure crazy people.

i'm nausious. i'm in hate with the world. i want to be TOTALLY alone, but i live in one room with one other person. there is no escape because i don't belong to the rest of the house. it's not wyl's fault, so don't think that, i would just like to curl up and be 100% alone. he's just doing what he always does. believe it or not there is a schedule to what he does. it's just tough for me because i certainly do NOT have a schedule.

i'm not comfortable in the rest of the house. what doesn't smell like dog piss smells like cat piss. cid is getting fixed friday which means i get to scrub the walls where he's been marking. the dog simply refuses to stop pissing inside. it so welcoming to have a driveway full of dogshit (that i have slipped on and damn near killed myself many times when coming home to our pitch black house, as well as discovered it ground into my shoe treds in very inopportune places. i swear the whole world gets darker where our house is, it's like it's in the shadow of everything!) and that smell! it's so wonderful. my BRAND NEW CAR now has a ghetto vanilla air freshener because the upholstry absorbed the dog shit smell. i even burned incense in it. and my cat simply won't.stop.pissing.everywhere. i really hope it stops when i get him fixed. if not i have no idea what to do.

i want everything to leave me alone. i'm too on edge today, it'll only take one push.

on the lighter side, dried banana chips and cherry vanilla dr. pepper are a wonderful experience.

Comments

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

hrmm... maybe i should scrub out the tub and get some salts and bubbles and soak. except i'm sure SOMEONE will need the bathroom the minute i sink into the tub, that's just the way it goes around here.

i have some "nature's miracle" stain and odor remover for cats, but i want to wait for cid to be fixed before i go on a scrub-a-thon so it's not all in vain. my idea is to scrub anything cat ass heigth while he's at the vet, poor guy. he'll be there for 8 hours :( but hopefully it'll take care of that.

any ideas for dog stink? my roomate's dog pisses all over the wood floors and the lenolium. we also discovered last night a doggie-doo mine field in the basement which is fucking gross as well as the doggy-doo mine field in the driveway... i'm PISSED about my BRAND SPANKING NEW car stinking like dog ass. it's a 2005, only a few weeks old. it should still smell like new car >:(

[couchemal.livejournal.com]

Oh damn, I would freak out. I got this stuff at Petco called Stain and Odor Remover that comes in a spray bottle, and it's got some kind of bacteria in it that's supposed to break down pet funk of all kinds. It seems to help.

My cat peed on the couch and I soaked it with this stuff and it doesn't smell like pee any more. It says on the bottle that it's supposed to work on any kind of animal poo also, so you might try it.
Basically what you do is soak whatever it is that has poo or pee on it with this stuff, and let it dry, and the bacteria is supposed to break the funk down.

It's also supposed to get rid of puke, blood, and grass stains too. So I guess if you stab someone while slipping around in grass, and then puke, and then the cat runs over and pees on you, you can clean up with this stuff. :D

[couchemal.livejournal.com]

Oh, and it smells like baby powder, which isn't wonderful but is much better than poo.