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it has become increasingly apparent to me that it is imparetive that i quit drinking. my body simply cannot handle the abuse i dish out anymore, especially with such high dosages of meds. my blackout rate is beginning to surpass my consciousness when inebriated. so, as of january 22nd, i am dry. i don't want to attend the middleaged mental grope-fest known as AA as i feel my 3 year long stint in NA was enough to let me know to "let go and let god (yeah right)" and i honestly don't think i could benefit from other people's sob stories.
from here on out it's me and wyl dealing with the illness that i CAN'T help instead of creating more.
i have been bed-confined since the day after my birthday due to intense physical pain from god knows what, emotional failure and fear. i swung pretty hard from the mania that was my birthday, plus i've just been flat out sick. i'm tired of feeling like this. these meds have to change.
in other news, i have my first mom-mobile and i absolutely love it.
here's that high school graduation thingy.
What year was it? 1999
What were your three favorite bands or musical artists? skinny puppy, theatre of tragedy and cradle of filth (i was in love with dani filth)
What was your favorite outfit? prolly something goth-trampy. i think it was my blood red front lace-up red velvet dress with jagged cut bottom
What was up with your hair? almost ass length jet black with red and purple little pinstripes
Who were your best friends? beck, lisa, j, the rpg crew
Where did you work? the platinum horse, heh
Did you take the bus? no
Who did you have a crush on? j, and ::coughcoughlisacoughcough::
Did you fight with your parents? i hadn't lived with them for some time
Did you smoke cigarettes? like a chimney
Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack because you were too nervous to find your locker? i don't think i even used either of them
Did you have a 'clique'? geh, more like followers. and then there was issa and john werny
Did you have "The Max" like Zach Kelly and Slater? what?
Admit it, were you popular? more like infamous
Who did you want to be just like? i didn't really.
What did you want to be when you grew up? i don't think i'd thought of that yet
Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now? i honestly thought i'd be dead or close to it. funny how accurate i was.
from here on out it's me and wyl dealing with the illness that i CAN'T help instead of creating more.
i have been bed-confined since the day after my birthday due to intense physical pain from god knows what, emotional failure and fear. i swung pretty hard from the mania that was my birthday, plus i've just been flat out sick. i'm tired of feeling like this. these meds have to change.
in other news, i have my first mom-mobile and i absolutely love it.
here's that high school graduation thingy.
What year was it? 1999
What were your three favorite bands or musical artists? skinny puppy, theatre of tragedy and cradle of filth (i was in love with dani filth)
What was your favorite outfit? prolly something goth-trampy. i think it was my blood red front lace-up red velvet dress with jagged cut bottom
What was up with your hair? almost ass length jet black with red and purple little pinstripes
Who were your best friends? beck, lisa, j, the rpg crew
Where did you work? the platinum horse, heh
Did you take the bus? no
Who did you have a crush on? j, and ::coughcoughlisacoughcough::
Did you fight with your parents? i hadn't lived with them for some time
Did you smoke cigarettes? like a chimney
Did you lug all of your books around in your backpack because you were too nervous to find your locker? i don't think i even used either of them
Did you have a 'clique'? geh, more like followers. and then there was issa and john werny
Did you have "The Max" like Zach Kelly and Slater? what?
Admit it, were you popular? more like infamous
Who did you want to be just like? i didn't really.
What did you want to be when you grew up? i don't think i'd thought of that yet
Where did you think you'd be at the age you are now? i honestly thought i'd be dead or close to it. funny how accurate i was.
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Also, our Chylsta homework ... ugh.
But, I don't think school stuff was ever in it...
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