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x-mess eve...
supposedly joey has a supermegaawesome gift for me that he's been whining about wanting to give me all month. a day from now i guess i'll find out.
i have pre-surgery testing at 7:30am, then more at 9:30, then work 1-9, then home.
so what am i doing up?
i can't sleep. it's more than likely the nerves and the adderall. i didn't want to take a pain pill (which would normally knock me the fuck out) cuz i have to be up at 6:30 so we can get to the hospital. surgery is thursday at 1, though i have to be there at 11 to get prepped. then i'll be there for 3-5 days. i'm hoping more like 3.
i'm scared. i'm anxious. i don't want to go through with it, but i'm going to make myself since all i do is bitch about how bad my back hurts. this is my chance to hopefully put an end to the misery.
plus i'll be part cyborg, so that's always a plus...
supposedly joey has a supermegaawesome gift for me that he's been whining about wanting to give me all month. a day from now i guess i'll find out.
i have pre-surgery testing at 7:30am, then more at 9:30, then work 1-9, then home.
so what am i doing up?
i can't sleep. it's more than likely the nerves and the adderall. i didn't want to take a pain pill (which would normally knock me the fuck out) cuz i have to be up at 6:30 so we can get to the hospital. surgery is thursday at 1, though i have to be there at 11 to get prepped. then i'll be there for 3-5 days. i'm hoping more like 3.
i'm scared. i'm anxious. i don't want to go through with it, but i'm going to make myself since all i do is bitch about how bad my back hurts. this is my chance to hopefully put an end to the misery.
plus i'll be part cyborg, so that's always a plus...