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[sprinklethief]

my dad is trying to get me to go on temporary total disability until i get my spine under control (lumbar and neck). the pain is classified as debilitating (i'm assuming that's why they give me so much percocet) in my lower back and hasn't been examined by a neurosurgeon yet in my neck (in a few weeks - sooner if i can get in) tho they've already recommended me for surgery based on the MRI's and symptoms.

i'm in so much pain most of the time i don't get out of bed or off the couch unless i have to - then i get real good and doped up and top it with an adderall so i can keep going. it's a miserable existence, but i have to keep full time status at work in order to keep my benefits.

does anyone have experience with this or any advice?

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[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i'm starting to think that the pain clinic i go to is a little too holistic and conservative. i appreciate trying not to dive in and start cutting shit up, but after what, about 4 years of misery with this back injury i'd think they'd be a little more aggressive. they just dropped a $1300 bill on me for all of this stupid bullshit that hasn't worked - AND THAT'S JUST THE COPAYS!!! the first thing the doc always says every time she sees me is "i don't understand how someone your age could have such terrible degeneration! it just doesn't make sense!" I DON'T CARE IF IT MAKES SENSE JUST FUCKING FIX IT!!!

the neurologist referred me to to neurosurgery after seeing the state my neck is in via MRI ("severe" herniation that's messing with my spinal cord) but there's AT LEAST a month waiting period for new patients. I think it's time for me to start looking at other doctors because frankly i'm fucking tired of ALWAYS being in so much pain. i don't think these assholes realize that it really doesn't respond to pain killers, and the ones that are powerful enough to at least do a little something knock me so fucking loopy i can barely function.

that's why dad says i need to seek disability until something is done because a) they might actually get their asses in gear and stop dragging me along for months at a time waiting for an appointment and b) it'll take a TON of stress off not having to work 40 hours on top of a 19 credit hour school schedule.