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well one good thing has happened since ShitWeek 2007 - this came in the mail :)
also, i got an A on my probability and stats project, and i feel i did pretty well on part one of my sign language midterm. only 4 more midterms to go ::laughs crazily ala bugs bunny in a strat jacket::!!
my sick won't go away. i can only eat about a fist size of food - all day. now, my days average 16 - 20 hours, that's not enough to keep me going. luckily i have adderall to keep me up and about but i feel the energy drain from not having enough food. i feel like i did this time of year in 2005 when i randomly dropped 80 lbs in a couple months. i have that sweet taste in my mouth that i believe denotes ketosis, which is good if your an atkins freak but not good if you need every ounce of energy you can muster. i'm starting to lose weight again which always makes a girl happy until they realize there's not much left to drop. i mean, i haven't seen 110 on the scale since high school. i've been hanging steady between 120-125 for the past few years. while it's fun to say that i weigh "just over 100 lbs"" it's probably not a good thing. i checked my bmi on a calculator and i'm still not in the danger zone. maybe i'll start eating sticks of butter. yeah, that'll help me not throw up.
goddamn my itunes is on a roll of seriously awesome music. shawn lee's ping pong orchestra - kiss the sky (one of my favorite songs at the moment, pink floyd - the show must go on, clutch - notes from the trial of la curandera, tricky - a ruff guide and now NoFX - murder the government. okay, so maybe today won't suck too bad.
also, i got an A on my probability and stats project, and i feel i did pretty well on part one of my sign language midterm. only 4 more midterms to go ::laughs crazily ala bugs bunny in a strat jacket::!!
my sick won't go away. i can only eat about a fist size of food - all day. now, my days average 16 - 20 hours, that's not enough to keep me going. luckily i have adderall to keep me up and about but i feel the energy drain from not having enough food. i feel like i did this time of year in 2005 when i randomly dropped 80 lbs in a couple months. i have that sweet taste in my mouth that i believe denotes ketosis, which is good if your an atkins freak but not good if you need every ounce of energy you can muster. i'm starting to lose weight again which always makes a girl happy until they realize there's not much left to drop. i mean, i haven't seen 110 on the scale since high school. i've been hanging steady between 120-125 for the past few years. while it's fun to say that i weigh "just over 100 lbs"" it's probably not a good thing. i checked my bmi on a calculator and i'm still not in the danger zone. maybe i'll start eating sticks of butter. yeah, that'll help me not throw up.
goddamn my itunes is on a roll of seriously awesome music. shawn lee's ping pong orchestra - kiss the sky (one of my favorite songs at the moment, pink floyd - the show must go on, clutch - notes from the trial of la curandera, tricky - a ruff guide and now NoFX - murder the government. okay, so maybe today won't suck too bad.
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it sucks because i don't have a general practitioner anymore, not that they were worried in the least about this the last time it happened. they never gave a diagnosis or anything or seemed concerned at all, they just ran a bunch of blood tests, got an elevated liver panel, ran a whole bunch more blood tests and that was it. i was going to lose my insurance in a month so they just stopped looking and told me i was fine. meanwhile my skin was flaking off, my hair was falling out in handfulls and i had just dropped 80 lbs in a little over 2 months, not to mention the shaking, seizures and not being able to keep solid food down. but no, apparently that's "fine" in the world of doctors.
i really have little faith in the medical world anymore, especially since i'm about to have back surgery #9 in a few weeks here. you'd think with CT scans and MRI's and stuff they'd be able to figure out the source of agonizing pain even though i told her again and again i suspect that it's disk pain because i know that pain all too well - she insisted that it had to be nerve damage. when they ablated the nerves and the pain didn't even waiver she was perplexed. wtf is that?! i have, in her words "massive degeneration" in my spine, but it's GOTTA be nerves! assholes.
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