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yappa has to be put down very soon. like as soon as i can afford it. i'm already starting to make final arrangement type plans and it's fucking killing me. she's been in my life for 16 years. most of my life i never really had friends so it was just me and my cat. i was always the weird girl or the new girl or just too mean/unpredictable to keep friends for long. i'm no good with relationship maintenance either so people often become bored or fed up with waiting for me to act normal (which is why wyl's such a gem because he knows that's never going to happen, lol).

she was diagnosed a few months ago with bladder cancer and was given three months to a year to live. recently she's begun losing weight and losing control of her bladder. now it's almost a constant thing to be cleaning up after her it's gotten so bad. i'm selfish and would do it forever if it were up to me, but it's not. i have to think about her quality of life at this point, which is probably the hardest thing i've ever done. normal people don't understand why i'm having such a hard time with this, so i guess i'll try to explain.

( decided to cut this because of the great deal of animal people on my friends list )

a little morbid...

yes, i am the crazy cat lady.

but has anyone seen something like this? but MUCH cheaper? i love my girl immensely but i can't drop $100 on a charm.