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so as it turns out, the little freak out sessions i've been having are psychotic episodes. lovely. it reminded me of when shane would call me "crying" to yell at me on my voicemail: "how dare i not answer my phone! friends answer their phones for friends!" never mind the fact that i'd worked a 12 hour day and it was 4am (you know, after the BARS CLOSE when all the DRUNKS are throwing HISSY FITS) and she was having a "psychological breakdown" or some other made-up bullshit like that.
it just makes me dispise her twice as much now that i'm actually having what she claimed (quite loudly to anyone that would listen)to be having. if she was having these i don't think she'd have even been able to comprehend her stupid fucking cell phone enough to even call me. you don't have an episode because your boyfriend breaks up with you every night. there's a difference between two drunks that fight all the time and a severe mental illness. but ask her, she's crazier than all of us. you know, cuz it's so cool to be crazy and all.
at any rate, aside from being a catty bitch, they put me on another med. yes another one. not changing one, putting me on another one goddamn it. it's geodon, and i've heard people RAVE about how good it is, but it knocked me the FUCK out yesterday. like the whole day (after work). woke up around 7am (even tho i don't have to be up till 8) and caught trails off the cats and now i feel like i'm swimming. of course i haven't taken my morning drug coctail yet so that might be a contributing factor.
i hope this shit works. i don't have time to be crazy right now.
it just makes me dispise her twice as much now that i'm actually having what she claimed (quite loudly to anyone that would listen)to be having. if she was having these i don't think she'd have even been able to comprehend her stupid fucking cell phone enough to even call me. you don't have an episode because your boyfriend breaks up with you every night. there's a difference between two drunks that fight all the time and a severe mental illness. but ask her, she's crazier than all of us. you know, cuz it's so cool to be crazy and all.
at any rate, aside from being a catty bitch, they put me on another med. yes another one. not changing one, putting me on another one goddamn it. it's geodon, and i've heard people RAVE about how good it is, but it knocked me the FUCK out yesterday. like the whole day (after work). woke up around 7am (even tho i don't have to be up till 8) and caught trails off the cats and now i feel like i'm swimming. of course i haven't taken my morning drug coctail yet so that might be a contributing factor.
i hope this shit works. i don't have time to be crazy right now.
