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hm, where to begin. i guess health since that's the constant misery of my life the past, mmm, i dunno, 26.5 years?
i'm off antidepressants for the first time since high school and have been for a little while now. aside from feeling retarded for a week i honestly don't feel any different without them. a sure sign i'd been on them too long and they simply weren't doing shit anymore. in fact, aside from adderall i'm off of all my mental meds. the adderall saves my life though. it seriously calms me down and mellows me out.
i've had weird infection after weird infection, most requiring antibiotics. one in my jaw, one in my arm, one in my skin, one in a place where it really sucks to have one... i have no clue what's causing it but it all started back in march when i had to take antibiotics for some shit i don't even remember now, then i got hit pretty much weekly. docs don't seem to think it's weird, as usual.
had to update my mri and things are... not so good. doc is talking some surgery where they burn the nerves on your vertebrae cuz the disk is pretty much gone. turned out my tailbone has been out of place for quite some time as well. the physical therapist popped it back and after the most hellish pain i've felt in a long time i got feeling back in my left leg. apparently i had sciatica as well and had to get a deep tissue massage that KILLED... but i have mobility back on the left side too (read: I DON'T FUCKING LIMP ANYMORE!!!!!). so i'm doing physical therapy 3 times a week to strengthen atrophied muscles and fucking WALK CORRECTLY!!!
the nephew and i have been hunting bugs. once i get the video onto the computer i will share the terror of his "bug roar." he's so damn cute.
um, lessie, i graduate much sooner than i thought. i'm actually starting to get nervous. in high school i didn't really give a fuck, but this is one of the first steps in my honest to goodness career and i'm amazed i've actually made it this far. i can't believe it's time to hunt schools for the next step... wow.
the man - awesome awesome awesome. we work very well together, like always. it's a very give and take relationship, very evened out. the friends he made since high school all get along pretty well with me, the others i've known since the skateboarding days so there's no real challenge. the only thing that bugs me is that he's so beat down from his last relationship. i had the luxury of not being verbally and mentally beat to shit all the time in my last relationship (actually we were usually quite civil to each other), but he didn't fare so well. if i even pretend joke like a bitchy girl he gets a kicked puppy look until he realizes i'm kidding. this chick destroyed him so much, i'm just trying to nurture him back to the joey i know is in there. most the time he does okay, but once in a while he gets a bit fucked up. i understand, but i feel kinda shitty because there's not much i can do besides show him i'm not gonna act like that. that's what i do tho, just try to let him know he's gonna be okay, poor dood.
so what the fuck is up with all you guys getting married?! congrats to the 80 freaking people that have either gotten married, engaged or are about to get married on my friend's list. rock on, all of you :)
with that, i go play xbox.
oh yeah, new katamari on 360. just thought i'd share for those that don't already know it's coming...
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you know i gotta say something about getting off the meds though...i totally understand feeling like they dont work, but are you under a dr's care as far as stopping them completely? it always seems like a great idea till you find yourself face down in a pool of psychissues, and it happens to me every time...especially if you went cold turkey, or quit them all at once...take care, and do whats right for you!
thanks for the kind words as well! we are blissful and giddy, and its lovely!