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say one thing when you meant the other
try to make me not understand...
i can't understand, i don't even know myself...
do i be selfish and focus on my ism?
or drop it and let the hard part consume me as well...
as this ilness seems to consume us...
and i'm so guilty, i'm ashamed
ashamed that there's not a thing i can do...
nothing i know how to do...
is everything that's "no big deal" really this big?
why can't i just be a fuckpuppet like she was...
at least you'd be happy with SOMETHING
try to make me not understand...
i can't understand, i don't even know myself...
do i be selfish and focus on my ism?
or drop it and let the hard part consume me as well...
as this ilness seems to consume us...
and i'm so guilty, i'm ashamed
ashamed that there's not a thing i can do...
nothing i know how to do...
is everything that's "no big deal" really this big?
why can't i just be a fuckpuppet like she was...
at least you'd be happy with SOMETHING