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[sprinklethief]

my diagnonsense might be getting changed. again. for the, what, 8th time in my life?

med change to follow.

maybe i'm normal under all of this and the meds are what's making me crazy?

there were mumblings of antipsychotics and being told about how they've changed a lot since the last time i was on them (pleasegodnothorazineorhaldoli'drathereatmyownface). at one point i felt like i fell backwards into the ground and everything was all trainspotting style even though i was sort of expecting it.

and she wants to treat my ADD (properly), but not until we get me "stable" first. she stole me from my nurse practitioner because she was intrigued and didn't think i was being treated correctly. neither do i, really.

i dunno how i feel about all of this. i don't like being right because i'm not an optimist so my outlook is grim. or maybe i am because i don't like being right? quandry quandry quandry.

i just don't know. feh. my house still stinks and i don't know why. i think there's food rotting somewhere.

and frosties come in vanilla now.

Comments

[dyadfaerie.livejournal.com]

I hope that they get you treated and feeling good!


vanilla frosties with m&m's rock my socks.

:D

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

that's exactly what i got too, lol

[daliah.livejournal.com]

what would be your new dx? or dont you know yet?

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

leaning towards full blown schizophrenia now apparently, or some sort of psychotic depression. at least that's what she was hinting at. for some reason doctors have interpreted me blacking out and attacking people (and having serious bouts of glossolalia in the process) as manias, at least she said that's what's in the notes in my history. she thinks it's more of a psychosis issue which now that it's been explained to me *not* in a "drooling maniac! we're going to put you back on thorazine!" terms kinda makes sense.

[lucidrebellion.livejournal.com]

i had an interesting experience with haldol in the ER once. We had a patient who, for some reason or another was unable to calm herself. Being a recruit, she was entitled to certian aspects of care that would be different than say, a normal person going to an er. Anyways, she starts being beligerant and not cooperating and the doc gives her a benedryl IM. that usually calms people, but noooo. So we load her on one of haldol. no. one more. no. two more, no. she's not violent, just uncooperative and beligerant. I've never seen a person that looks very mousish withstand so much. Its quite amazing. Ultimately it took a dose of Ketamine ( a kick ass drug that, when used medicinally *ahem*, can put one under a timed coma like state, usually 30 minutes) to get her to sleep so we could suture her up.

anyways.

...i need to go back to school. ...keeennnnnt

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

sweet christ, haldol puts me out for the count. then again the last time i was on it was haldol decanoate (a.k.a. "the big guns") to get me to chill the fuck out.

ketamine, hehehehe. i remember when all the kids started getting in to that. i would have loved to see her try to fight after getting dosed with that, lol.

and yes, you should come to the dark side, mwahahahaha! we are so evil here even our squirrels wear black... ::rimshot::

[indy-skies.livejournal.com]

they are right - the newer "atypical antipsychotics" are better. i've taken two of them and haven't had any adverse effects. the first one i tried - seroquel - makes you really sleepy but the one i'm on now - risperdal - is fine. i function normally and it does the job. i've heard that another good one is - abilify. (we don't have that in canada.)

anyway... i hope you get treated correctly and so you can function. med changes are a bitch.