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every time i start to crawl out of the hole...
i began this job almost $9,000 in medical debt.
i paid it all off.
then i got sicker (mentally).
expensive treatments, meds.
treatments for the broken back (that has a grand total SO FAR of $11,000 - i'd say we're even... and it's flairing up again...)
now i'm getting physically sicker and am being forced to resign due to health, actual physical health.
the next round of medical bills have rolled in from the last back surgery and random hospitalizations/ER visits/testing. mind you, these are just copays...
i'm fucking back under $500 and climbing.
and i'm about to lose my insurance in january, i'm clamouring to figure out how to find new insurence that isn't going to break me, and a job that isn't going to break me.
plus there's a HUGE expense about to happen in my life that's going to suck up ALL of my funds including pocket change.
and my whole life is about to 360 into a fucking spiral that i have no idea where it's going to land, and if i'll even be standing when it does. i have no goddamn control over it at all.
how the hell did i go from netting $10,000 in one month to this?
i began this job almost $9,000 in medical debt.
i paid it all off.
then i got sicker (mentally).
expensive treatments, meds.
treatments for the broken back (that has a grand total SO FAR of $11,000 - i'd say we're even... and it's flairing up again...)
now i'm getting physically sicker and am being forced to resign due to health, actual physical health.
the next round of medical bills have rolled in from the last back surgery and random hospitalizations/ER visits/testing. mind you, these are just copays...
i'm fucking back under $500 and climbing.
and i'm about to lose my insurance in january, i'm clamouring to figure out how to find new insurence that isn't going to break me, and a job that isn't going to break me.
plus there's a HUGE expense about to happen in my life that's going to suck up ALL of my funds including pocket change.
and my whole life is about to 360 into a fucking spiral that i have no idea where it's going to land, and if i'll even be standing when it does. i have no goddamn control over it at all.
how the hell did i go from netting $10,000 in one month to this?
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For example: I get this weird screaming ache that sometimes turns into a stabbing pain going down my left side. It's absolutely intolerable and it lasts a very long time once it starts. I go to doctors in the middle of the night about this and they only want to take x-rays and give me anti-inflammatory medicine, when I already told them I KNOW it's not from an injury. This costs me and arm and a leg (eh - no pun intended, i swear to god.). And none of the meds even come close to taking the pain away even a little bit.
And don't even get me started on the psych meds. They're so fucking beyond frustrating it can't even be explained, as you know.