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[sprinklethief]

this is supposed to be the time of year that i'm elated and bouncing off the walls. i just feel... dead.

there's so much in life that was supposed to be certain, you were supposed to be able to believe people when they promised you things, able to count on those close to you (instead of just a few). life was never supposed to get unmanageable because something always came to the rescue, the worst problems in life had clear solutions, even if they were difficult.

what happened to this rose colored view of life we were all taught exists? why did everyone lie to us when we were kids?

instead, i find myself in predicament after predicament that i can barely handle. everything i thought was certain is a total mirage. i guess a part of me holds to some deluded ideal that if you keep to your basic structure shit can't get too out of control, even though i've found this to be completely wrong again and again. i'm just falling into line hoping it'll get better, that one day people won't lie to me constantly, that when someone gives me their word i know i can count on it, that i know i'm not completely and totally alone in the world.

i mean, it's gotta be true, right?

Comments

[vincentx.livejournal.com]

I promise not to be a total stranger in the future. :D and if there is anything i can do my door is always open even if the door says occupied.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i'm not getting into a port-a-potty with you vince.

::rimshot::

[vincentx.livejournal.com]

eww that's gross. that's not what i meant. oh but what about a phone booth! one that goes forward AND backwards in time. it would be a most excellent adventure.

::air guitar::