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life has been insane. i really wish all the volatile job market bullshit would resolve already. joey hasn't even tried to look for a job, and as much as it pisses me off, i really can't blame him. why start a job just to get laid off in a week? it's stressful as hell being the only breadwinner in our home, and i make next to nothing, seriously. i told my boss how much i make a year and he didn't believe me, then asked how the hell i survive. very carefully my friend.
the assistant manager thing is awesome. i'll finally be getting paid for the job i've been doing anyways and will be able to shed my supervisor duties onto... well... the supervisors. i just wish it was a shorter timeline. the DM said 6 months is a reasonable estimate, but he also said that if they can find a spot to move our current assistant manager sooner that he will do that ASAP so we can get this process started. i wish he'd leave now dammit. i need the money - desperately - especially since i've blown so much of my savings out my ass for the past few weeks to help with the funeral, fly us to florida, feed us while we're there, etc. it's just really wearing on me to see the money i scrimped and saved up over two years just gone in 2 weeks. it's not totally empty, but if we keep up at the rate we are, it will be.
joey's dad's passing is finally starting to sink in now. i've been working on redesigning the program for the funeral and he totally lost it last night. he woke up with his very first panic attack last night i had to talk him down from. i just don't know what to do to help him, it seems to hit him harder and harder each day as he realizes that dad's gone. he'll start crying and say something about "i was wondering about ________ and then i realized i can't call my dad anymore to ask his advice." it's gut-wrenching to watch, but i understand. i think if he were working and not just sitting around pondering this endlessly it wouldn't be so hard for him, but that's just not in the cards right now.
i have to go start getting ready. i have to work a 12 hour shift because our asshole assistant manager couldn't be bothered to help out - again. i can't wait until he's gone. none of us can, including the big boss.
the assistant manager thing is awesome. i'll finally be getting paid for the job i've been doing anyways and will be able to shed my supervisor duties onto... well... the supervisors. i just wish it was a shorter timeline. the DM said 6 months is a reasonable estimate, but he also said that if they can find a spot to move our current assistant manager sooner that he will do that ASAP so we can get this process started. i wish he'd leave now dammit. i need the money - desperately - especially since i've blown so much of my savings out my ass for the past few weeks to help with the funeral, fly us to florida, feed us while we're there, etc. it's just really wearing on me to see the money i scrimped and saved up over two years just gone in 2 weeks. it's not totally empty, but if we keep up at the rate we are, it will be.
joey's dad's passing is finally starting to sink in now. i've been working on redesigning the program for the funeral and he totally lost it last night. he woke up with his very first panic attack last night i had to talk him down from. i just don't know what to do to help him, it seems to hit him harder and harder each day as he realizes that dad's gone. he'll start crying and say something about "i was wondering about ________ and then i realized i can't call my dad anymore to ask his advice." it's gut-wrenching to watch, but i understand. i think if he were working and not just sitting around pondering this endlessly it wouldn't be so hard for him, but that's just not in the cards right now.
i have to go start getting ready. i have to work a 12 hour shift because our asshole assistant manager couldn't be bothered to help out - again. i can't wait until he's gone. none of us can, including the big boss.
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