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[sprinklethief]

i'm so excited that i spent so much time and money getting a nice little party together for all TWO FUCKING PEOPLE who are coming (out of 40 invited). at least they'll have all the neat little healthy snacks they can possibly eat.

it's so fucking painful for me. it takes a lot for me to reach out to people, to be social. it's just not my nature. i finally muster up the guts to do something nice, to try to be a social member of society and i have all but totally been rejected.

i'm done. seriously.

i've been crying for a few days now. i really thought i'd passed the "socially awkward" phase of my life, but i now realize that phase will never go away. i guess it's time to curl up with a bottle of wine and some percocets and just cut my losses.

i'm done playing host. i'm done trying to offer an escape for people. i'm done trying to help because - when it comes down to it no one seems to really want it. i'm done playing mediator, counselor and psychiatrist. no, i won't analyze your problems until you cough up the $100 i should be getting paid for this shit.

i'm just fucking.... done.

after tonight, casa del kym is closed to visitors.

Comments

[anmorata.livejournal.com]

I wub joo, Kym. *hug*

PS - I was planning on coming down a little early, around 6-6:30 or so. That cool?

[insidiousarcana.livejournal.com]

oh no! =( well, this might not make much of a difference, but I think you are a very bright and interesting girl who is much fun to hang out with. If you have that many friends who didn't/won't show up, you may want to rethink some of them. Too bad you don't live closer, cuz I would TOTALLY come to your party. I think you're great! :D


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[anmorata.livejournal.com]

I think you are a very bright and interesting girl who is much fun to hang out with.

She is. She really, really is. :)

[greyyguy.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry to hear it isn't working out as well as hoped. I'd come but I am kinda out of town. And given the nature of the party, I don't think the baby would fit in too well. She might even cause a problem. Kinda a warning. Like "oooo- if you have sex I could happen! Bwaa-ha-ha-ha!"

As for the rest, you seem like a very cool person. Don't let a few disappointing people keep you from sharing how awesome you are with others.

[joybeans.livejournal.com]

I'm sorry. :o( I wish I lived closer. If I still lived in Ohio, I would have come. ilu

[indy-skies.livejournal.com]

i hear ya, i'm very much the same way. i've not been writing in my journal lately but i'm going through some similar feelings and situations and at work on monday i intend to adopt the same attitude: sarah is closed for business. she will do her job and that's it. being nice and social with co-workers just hasn't paid off. they can all go eff themselves.

hope the people that do really care about your party have a good time. i certainly would have come if i lived anywhere near you. the "adult" party i went to a while ago was a blast.

take care.

[anmorata.livejournal.com]

Joey's Crack Dip was absolutely *fantastic*, the spread was great, and the margaritas were awesome. :)

You've also got a couple of b-day presents coming your way from me via the rep. ;) Happy belated birthday, baby. xoxo

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

shit, you'd buy everything if you came, lol. it was a pure romance party.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

next time you're in these here parts look me up!

how's the work thing going? do you wanna borrow my pimp cane to bitch beat some fuckers?

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

lol, i think you guys have a valid reason not to come, that and we're like what, 3-4 hours apart?

hows the munchkin doing?

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i was always the weird kid in school so i don't know why i expected that to change. those who did show up had a great time tho, so at least i made a few people happy.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i hate that dip, i simply cannot stop eating it. he just pulled that recipe out of thin air too. i love having a man who can cook.

b-day gifts? :) awww, ya shouldn't have!

[greyyguy.livejournal.com]

She is doing wonderfully. I need to post some more photos of her :)