god must really want me to meet my insurance deductible...

[sprinklethief]

"low grade" abnormal pap. i have to get a colposcopy. fucking yay. and to think it was just supposed to be a freaking annual. certainly might explain the bad vadge luck i've had the past year and a half...

i gotta admit tho, i'm a bit scared. weird that i'm more scared of this than the spinal fusion... i guess anything with even the slightest possibility of being the big C has that effect. lol, i just remembered wyl drawing a big scary letter c. wish i had that right now.

also, i go in for it the day joey goes out of town for a week. he worries so much about me already, i think i'm just gonna keep the fact that i'm scared to myself, maybe keep the doc appointment to myself too until i know everything's okay. poor dude blows a gasket any time something medically bad happens to me. he's going to die young if he keeps that up, lol. i just told him that "eh, it happens occasionally. it's prolly nothing" so he'd go to work. if i act nonchalant maybe he'll stay calm.

crap, i hope this doesn't push my fusion back... i'd much rather have that than people i don't know pokin' me in my hoo haa.

enough already, dammit!


edit: apparently i'm getting a biopsy too... this is getting a little scarier now.

Comments

[ciani.livejournal.com]

eek good luck! *HUGS*

[lucidrebellion.livejournal.com]

a biopsy is a normal procedure in a colposcopy..if the doc sees something, theyll take a sample to the labs to test. dont get too worked up over that fact

don't worry either, if anything, they would have caught it soon enough

[anmorata.livejournal.com]

I had one of those. They suck, I won't lie. But it's just a precaution, love. Better to be safe and told "you're fine" than to not go at all.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

thank you :) it really does help, even if they're e-hugs

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

i never thought of it like that. thank you.


i guess i'm scared because my first pap ever had cancer cells and they lopped the patch of cells off. it was excruciating. i was 13.

[paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com]

true. thank you :)

[joybeans.livejournal.com]

aww hunny, just what you needed, right? *big hugs*