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a year ago today i had to let go of my best friend of 16 years. she's been in my thoughts every day ever since. i saw an ornament at target of a tiny black and white kitty with wings and a halo and totally lost it over the weekend. she was my best friend, she was my cuddle buddy, she was my crying partner. she always looked up at me so lovingly - all the time. she always curled up so lovingly next to me night after night, purring her little precious heart away only wanting to be near me, usually clutching my finger in her little paw while resting her head on my arm.
the pain is still exactly the same as it was a year ago - i still get to the very edge of crying just thinking about her and how horribly i miss her every single day. i never wanted to let her go, and the circumstances surrounding it were so frustrating. the vet missed CANCER. something the new vet picked up right away because the mass had gotten so big. had the vet we were going to actually cared there's a chance she'd still be with us today.
yappa, my little angel, i miss you so much. i'm so sorry i couldn't do more for you, i'm so sorry i had to be the last face you'd ever see in this life, and i'm so sorry your last days were so horrible. i love you kitty. i miss you and i love you.
the pain is still exactly the same as it was a year ago - i still get to the very edge of crying just thinking about her and how horribly i miss her every single day. i never wanted to let her go, and the circumstances surrounding it were so frustrating. the vet missed CANCER. something the new vet picked up right away because the mass had gotten so big. had the vet we were going to actually cared there's a chance she'd still be with us today.
yappa, my little angel, i miss you so much. i'm so sorry i couldn't do more for you, i'm so sorry i had to be the last face you'd ever see in this life, and i'm so sorry your last days were so horrible. i love you kitty. i miss you and i love you.