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i've been up since goddamn 4am because my neck was acting up so bad. i took a half muscle relaxer around 9:30 last night since i didn't have to work and passed the fuck out by 10. apparently i was falling asleep standing up with my head against the bathroom wall, lol.
but... i have a research participant to run through 3 hours worth of testing at 9am, so i can't take a muscle relaxer now. not that it really helped all that much, it just made it so i could sleep. it feels like my brain is riding on the end of my spine. joey says i have a ton of little lumps at the base of my skull that he's assuming are knots in the muscle. he said it's so hard and tense that he can feel the muscle fiber (i told him it was just the tendons because i'm very skinny). i'm just so over this. vicodin barely touches this, but percocet knocks me thefuckout and the big vicodins make me really sick. i don't even want to take pain killers because they dull my cat-like reflexes (hey, i can dream).
maybe if i start keeping a pain journal i can go to the doc and be like "here, now fix me."
god this sucks.
but... i have a research participant to run through 3 hours worth of testing at 9am, so i can't take a muscle relaxer now. not that it really helped all that much, it just made it so i could sleep. it feels like my brain is riding on the end of my spine. joey says i have a ton of little lumps at the base of my skull that he's assuming are knots in the muscle. he said it's so hard and tense that he can feel the muscle fiber (i told him it was just the tendons because i'm very skinny). i'm just so over this. vicodin barely touches this, but percocet knocks me thefuckout and the big vicodins make me really sick. i don't even want to take pain killers because they dull my cat-like reflexes (hey, i can dream).
maybe if i start keeping a pain journal i can go to the doc and be like "here, now fix me."
god this sucks.