i've decided i need a sponsor for college. they will give me health insurance and a monthly stipend to help cover life's bills. i will cover my own tuition, they will just make it so i can actually spend time on school and maybe get some sleep so i stop getting sick all the time. in return i will offer them or anyone they choose free psychiatric help for life.


and then i stopped daydreaming.



basically, i'm exhausted. the doc warned me to slow down, but i simply cannot. i have to go to classes, i have to work full time to keep my benefits. i can't drop any classes because i'll lose my financial aid (special circumstances, i had to file an appeal to keep my aid) and they just keep PILING ON the homework. seriously.

i feel like hell, i've got some cold that's going around that makes it feel like your breathing acid and gargling razor blades. this is a little over a week from having the spew flu (had to go to the crixsmiss wedding with pepto in my purse, lol). i stopped taking my vicodin because it was slowing me down and since they upped my dosage is was making me really sick. i was throwing up more than the sorority girls, so i've had enough of that noise. instead i'm grinning and bearing it as best i can. i didn't realize just how much pain i'm always in until day 2 of being off of it. fucking hell, this isn't right.

so yeah, i just wanted to bitch.



EDIT: i will also settle for being turned in to a cat in the care of someone like me. lazy bastards.

From: [identity profile] lucidrebellion.livejournal.com


that sounds like our house...albeit without the medical seriousness going on.

if theres any help we can provide, please, dont hesitate to ask, ok?

the dont pay me slave wages for nothing ^_^

From: [identity profile] paroxysm-cycle.livejournal.com


like you, just a drive by greet is nice :) i know there's really nothing anyone can do about any of this really, i just need to vent.
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