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sometimes when others try to help you it seems patronizing and forced. sometimes i feel like a burden to everyone.

i just want to run away like i used to when things got to be too much. i used to just drop everything and dissapear for months on end. this would be the perfect time to.

but i wont.

i feel so defeated and i hate this place and i hate what i've become.

i want to go back to when everything was okay and things didn't bother me so much. i want my naivety back. i want everything to be simple. fuck this complexity.