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stupid weekend. i was trying to convince myself it was fun... it really wasn't. i went specifically to hang out with my dad, but he's the scoutmaster of a scout group who was also there (we weren't told until right before so we couldn't back out) so i saw him about as much as i can see my feet standing strait up.

i canoed. i rode horses. i was hot and miserable. flipped the canoe trying to save my retarded little brother after he flipped his kyak ramming our boat. we gothim upright and my dad and stepmom came by so he flipped on purpose, then we dumped trying to turn around to help. fuck that kid. and his mom. they're slowly killing my dad.

his health is shit. he makes me look like the picture of health. he should still be in his damn wheelchair but he refuses. he can barely fucking stand up. when he is standing up he just wobbles.

i just wanted to be with my dad. that's all. i can tell he's not going to be around for too much longer, as fucked up as it sounds. i just want to spend time with my dad without my stupid little half brother and his mother interfearing.


but...

dad refered to wyl as one of his kids... and then as "kym's husband"....

i think that means he likes him.

my fucking mood is on edge, i hate everyone right now.

this whole goddamn weekend ended up being a nightmare. i'm glad i'm home.

heh, i thought i'd be less

You Are 33% American

America: You don't love it or want to leave it. But you wouldn't mind giving it an extreme make over. On the 4th of July, you'll fly a freak flag instead... And give Uncle Sam a sucker punch!

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a good wash and a night in a real bed (well kinda... no box springs cuz they never fit up the stairs) and i'm feeling a little better. this weekend still blew. wyl and i at eachother's throats, my little brother being a shithead and punching some kid for talking about his mom and quitting the troop that my daf built specifically for him, the covering of my car with dirt from the three mile dirt road...

todays a little better though. i guess.