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it's just that i haven't felt like myself. i haven't wanted to go out and be superficial. i haven't wanted to do anything at all really. it's become a chore to smile, to act.
i feel like there's no point in this, i don't feel needed, or even wanted. was the whole thing a mistake? should i have kept my mouth shut way back when? would we still be friends if i had? would you even like me, or would we have had another year-long falling out by now? we aren't friends anymore and i don't know why. i don't have a solution, i'm part of the problem.
i wish it all made sense.
i wish it wasn't such a chore to like me.
i wish i liked me.
i feel like there's no point in this, i don't feel needed, or even wanted. was the whole thing a mistake? should i have kept my mouth shut way back when? would we still be friends if i had? would you even like me, or would we have had another year-long falling out by now? we aren't friends anymore and i don't know why. i don't have a solution, i'm part of the problem.
i wish it all made sense.
i wish it wasn't such a chore to like me.
i wish i liked me.
