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so the other pre-med student at work was all frustrated about her microbiology test as i was pulling out my hair over chemistry. she walks into the office to ask me a question about microbiology just as i'm about to drop-kick my book for the 80'th time and i answer it without a second thought. i do this about three more times. i haven't taken college level microbiology yet. at least i know one pre-med class i'm going to ace. so i ask her chemistry questions. she breezes right through them. maybe she can tutor me since the STUPID ASS UNIVERSITY THAT IS PAID TO TUTOR ME CAN'T BE BOTHERED TO.
it sucks. i know that if the class wasn't zooming by so fast and i could just slow down and get a grasp of things i'd be doing just fine. add to that my ADD getting like a billion times worse over the past year or so... i go to a publicly funded clinic, too. i made an appointment to get back on adderall back in june foreseeing a problem, they said i'd have to wait 3 months. 3 months come and go and the bitch cancels my appointment and has to reschedule - 3 MONTHS LATER! so yeah, that takes us to mid-october - 7 weeks into the 15 week semester after i've pretty much dug my own grave. i still have a pretty much full bottle of strattera left but like the cymbalta i can't take it. plus it makes me really sleepy and as i can barely hold my eyes open as it is now i seriously doubt any amount of ADD med would do much good to a sedated me. that and it pooped out after about 2 weeks last time.
i just want to go back to bed and forget chemistry exists. either that or i want to go to sleep and wake up having reset back to august and the bitch didn't cancel my appointment and i got me adderall and now i can thing a thought for more than a second without having to re-read and rethink what i just did that way i would have never fallen behind in the first place.
i feel so retarded. i feel like i have a learning disability when before i always felt smart, or at least intelligent. it's just getting worse and worse the older i get.
it sucks. i know that if the class wasn't zooming by so fast and i could just slow down and get a grasp of things i'd be doing just fine. add to that my ADD getting like a billion times worse over the past year or so... i go to a publicly funded clinic, too. i made an appointment to get back on adderall back in june foreseeing a problem, they said i'd have to wait 3 months. 3 months come and go and the bitch cancels my appointment and has to reschedule - 3 MONTHS LATER! so yeah, that takes us to mid-october - 7 weeks into the 15 week semester after i've pretty much dug my own grave. i still have a pretty much full bottle of strattera left but like the cymbalta i can't take it. plus it makes me really sleepy and as i can barely hold my eyes open as it is now i seriously doubt any amount of ADD med would do much good to a sedated me. that and it pooped out after about 2 weeks last time.
i just want to go back to bed and forget chemistry exists. either that or i want to go to sleep and wake up having reset back to august and the bitch didn't cancel my appointment and i got me adderall and now i can thing a thought for more than a second without having to re-read and rethink what i just did that way i would have never fallen behind in the first place.
i feel so retarded. i feel like i have a learning disability when before i always felt smart, or at least intelligent. it's just getting worse and worse the older i get.
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Yeah, my ADHD is out of con-fucking-trol!
I have a short attention span to be sure but this is ridiculous!
Add the fact that my memory is swiss cheese and stir.
I feel like a weetah sometimes and that's sad :(
Hope things get better for ye!
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things were going really well for me, since I was back normal level brain functioning, but things are slipping again- like trying to keep your head up while slowly sinking underwater.
I'm sorry things are going so rough!