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i cut my nails down back to bass playing length after snapping two off on my 5 string fish last night.
as i grow up and continue to learn, i am seeing that a LOT of people i've kept as aquaintences i actually don't like. like, at all. like people who whore themselves to get "staus" in this city. people who only talk to prominant people in the stupid "scene" to make name-drop worthy friends. "oh, i hung out with [random name drop] and we djed this show for [random stupid ebm/ass goth/wahtever stupid shit you all listen to now] and we saw [name drop] who said they were djing [stupid lame-ass dj night] and got really dunk!" like this asshole in the middle. whatever. if that's all you want to do with your life, you are stupid. i have no respect for you. i don't care what bands your friends with. i don't care what exciting new cutting edge shitfest songs you're playing. be like batty. fucking play journey in the chamber and not give a FUCK. then you'll earn my respect.
wow, i've become jaded. no wonder i never go out anymore. i think i'm going to go to a buffet before the next time i go out and eat all i possibly can then throw up on any stupid fuck that runs up and hugs me. i've always hated being touched, i was just too drunk to care. i think sobriety is the best thing that could have happened to me: i finally got my goddamn priorities strait and began creating a good life for my family that i now have, albeit only 2 people, it's still my family.
maybe i'm a "corporate asshole" now, or maybe i just realized how childish and "i'm so cool" everyone is. whatever. i'd rather stay home away from ever other assholes and paint or cuddle mr. stupidface.
fuck.
as i grow up and continue to learn, i am seeing that a LOT of people i've kept as aquaintences i actually don't like. like, at all. like people who whore themselves to get "staus" in this city. people who only talk to prominant people in the stupid "scene" to make name-drop worthy friends. "oh, i hung out with [random name drop] and we djed this show for [random stupid ebm/ass goth/wahtever stupid shit you all listen to now] and we saw [name drop] who said they were djing [stupid lame-ass dj night] and got really dunk!" like this asshole in the middle. whatever. if that's all you want to do with your life, you are stupid. i have no respect for you. i don't care what bands your friends with. i don't care what exciting new cutting edge shitfest songs you're playing. be like batty. fucking play journey in the chamber and not give a FUCK. then you'll earn my respect.
wow, i've become jaded. no wonder i never go out anymore. i think i'm going to go to a buffet before the next time i go out and eat all i possibly can then throw up on any stupid fuck that runs up and hugs me. i've always hated being touched, i was just too drunk to care. i think sobriety is the best thing that could have happened to me: i finally got my goddamn priorities strait and began creating a good life for my family that i now have, albeit only 2 people, it's still my family.
maybe i'm a "corporate asshole" now, or maybe i just realized how childish and "i'm so cool" everyone is. whatever. i'd rather stay home away from ever other assholes and paint or cuddle mr. stupidface.
fuck.